Thinking Out Loud

மறுபடியும் உயிர்த்தெழுந்து உணர்வுகளின் ஒரு பகுதியில், உறவுகளுடன் ஒரு உரையாடல் கொண்ட கண நேரத்தில் காலன் தவறை உணர பலியான கனவு உண்மை தெளிய, எதுவும் அன்றி பொய்யாக விழிப்பின் விளிம்பில் ஒரு உரையாடல் எவரிடமோ என்பதல்லாமல், பயணங்கள் தெளிவற்று வெளிச்சத்தில் நிலையற்று, இருட்டின் தேடலில் மறந்து போன, மறைக்க நினைத்த வாழ்வின் முடிவில் மரணம்…

I first heard about "I Heard You Paint Houses" when Robert De Niro and Martin Scorsese were planning to adapt the book into a movie called "The Irishman". Needless to say I was excited by the fact that De Niro and Scorsese were re-uniting after more than ten years (before they had collaborated to make "Casino" in 1995). One lazy Sunday afternoon I was browsing the web and decided to buy the book, on an impulse, from Book Depository . I have never heard of Charles Brandt before so I was not familiar with his style of writing. To say I was pleasantly surprised from page one would be an understatement. The book was never tedious as I had predicted (I had read a few non-fiction books before, and were not keen on them). The book reminded me of the time I watched " GoodFellas " for the first time (I could not watch any movies completely for a long time after GoodFellas because they could just not complete with it). I will say the same about I Heard You

"It's all over after Phuket" said my friend, "I am all sexed out". Some people may find this amusing, others not so. I belong to the latter category because my friend has been saying this for the last 5 years. That's right, five fucking years! Put aside the feelings of jealousy and read on. If I can write this, surely you can read it. Some background info on my friend. For those who don't know him, let's just leave it at that. For those who are familiar with him, you know that he has faults like other human beings, refuses to accept those faults like other human beings and juxtaposes those faults on his 'partners' so he can have a clean break-up once the sex is over and he is "sexed out". Like other human beings? I honestly don't know the answer to that one. When asked why he behaves like a bastard, he says "better to be a player, before being played, 'cos you are gonna get played, anyway". Hmmm, food for thought,